Tell them that I died, and I turned into an angel, and when they feel a breeze in a room with all the windows closed or that chill on the back of their neck, that is just me watching over them. | Day 35 of 90

Played pickleball yesterday, did an IF for 13 hours, and stretched with Amber. Earlier in the week, I had been a bit low energy and not eating super well. 

We had kung pao chicken, some boba, and some salad yesterday and some burrito's today from Shakey's. I'm doing better today after doing some coaching with Audrey and talking through some of my goals. Even if I don't feel much clarity right now about my identity and what I want really, it doesn't mean that I will always feel that way. 

I really wanted to be successful at my job and it's not happening as fast as I would like it and what I put in does not necessarily equate what I get out of it, which is hard and frustrating. But talking to Audrey has helped me to see what I do have that is within my control and going back to my values too.

I also feel like I can try my best and do my best but if that's not something that God wants for me then it's not gonna happen just like having kids. Sometimes I feel frustrated and defeated and just in a funk, but sometimes getting out of the house can really help.

Yesterday I went to the Knitting Lounge shadowed for a bit, and did some socializing which helped a lot. I felt a lot better after being useful and rearranging the yarn wall to be aesthetically pleasing. That made me happy and I also felt a little bit more inspired to finally finish my socks!

Definitely feeling better and less in my head, since yesterday, when S got into a car accident and I went to go pick her up and help her. There are always ways it could be worse and I have it pretty good. It can be helpful to get that perspective sometimes.

Some more thoughts this week, which is almost at a close, planning on doing another IF for 13 hours, and enjoying awesome weather on Monday. Hanging out with my family on Saturday for Frank's birthday and going to work on drinking water in the car when I am driving as a tiny habit.