Have you ever pooped a balloon? | Day 29 of 90

Something I am learning about myself this Venus retrograde is that I have really high unspoken expectations for myself in terms of my output and productivity and consistency. I am learning that I don't always take into consideration reasonable limits like boredom, fatigue, and doing enough. I tend to pile things on myself. 

I never took myself as someone who needs to take breaks but ironically, I find that I am not as disappointed in myself if I stop early, compared to if I power through until burnout, because the to do list is never ending.

Something else I also learned about myself is that sometimes internally and not always subconsciously, I ask myself the question, does this really make a difference?

I think that when I lose interest in a goal, it's because the short term seems to make so little difference and I ultimately believe that I won't be able to achieve the long term goal. In short, I don't believe in myself and what I'm doing.

I think that's why I feel strangely motivated by numbers on a DEXA scan because it shows that what I'm doing, or not doing matters and does make a difference.

That's why for my 90 day goals, I am going to try for streaks, which will help me to break down my 90 day goal into short term goals. I'll also post a weekly review where I'll look back and see how much I did in the week and how close I am to the goals!

Also, why this title? Well, my husband had to do a stool sample and I just had to work in this office quote to the blog somehow. In fact, I have a few other stool related quotes that I might just have to pop out for the next few posts, pun intended.